Well as the clock is about to hit 4 am, I am sitting here in my room, thinking. I am pretty sure that I think too much, if that is even possible. Have you ever thought about the choices you have made in life and where they have led you? For some reason that seems to be a reoccurring topic that has been going on in my mind the last few days. I keep thinking about high school and decisions I would like to go back and do over again. Mainly grades and friendships. Grades for the obvious reason, so I don't need to ponder on that one too much. I've decided to go back to Dallas for a week or so. I'm mainly going home to help clean and get rid of a bunch of old things and to see my parents.
As I think about going home, I really want to get in touch with some people who's friendships I really appreciated back then, but how do you say sorry after 7 years? This dilemma comes from the classic case of friends cheating with other friend's boyfriends and so on. Sadly this happened Sophomore or Junior year and it seems like it still comes around to remind me. Don't worry..I was the friend who had her friend's back when she found out about the cheating going on with another friend. This all leads to why I don't want to move back to Dallas. My friend's have their own lives and I feel like I will be the new kid. I miss my home and I miss that part of my life, but I'm so happy with my new life. My friends are amazing beyond words and even though I have no idea what I want to do for a job, I'm still content. Not saying that my friends back home aren't, but I'm just not that close with them anymore.
If we are called to love and to be loved, why is there so much hate in this country? It's so hard to see people talk down to complete strangers and to be rude for no reason. Can you imagine a world where we all said at least one nice thing to everyone we would come in contact with everyday? I just wish there was peace. Five little letters that spell such a simple word. I want to be a peace maker. Nothing radical or anything, but I just want to stand up for peace and to give it a chance for once. What if we all started speaking love and peace into our lives and into the lives we come in contact with on a daily basis? Do you think the world could slowly change? I think God is working on a peace plan, but that plan is us.
Wow, that was a lot and it was all over the place. My apologies readers =) Until next time!
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