And so it begins!

Well hello out there fellow bloggers! So it's almost 2 am and I am finally getting around to writing in my blog, but there is one problem: I have no idea what to talk about. But..a wise friend did tell me that the point of a blog is to write whatever is on our mind. So here goes nothin!

          I have had a lot of free time lately, thanks to not having a job at the current moment and another big thank you to the snow these past two weeks. What have I been thinking about? Oh you know...life and all the little questions that come with it. For you all out there reading this: I go to an amazing church, have some awesome new friendships, and my relationship with God is really starting to grow. But yet I'm still so confused on where my path is leading. All I could and can really think about is the verse Jeremiah 29:11: ‎"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." I'm not worried about where my path is leading, I just want some type of direction. 

           I guess what my major question right now is do I stay here in Oklahoma or do I move back to Texas? My heart has really grown to love this city and the people here. Like I said before I just started going to a new church and I absolutely love it. I'm starting to get involved and I'm seeing God in a new, beautiful way. My best friend that now lives in Texas is trying to get me to move back to Dallas. Don't get me wrong--I miss my parents, my old friends, the sunsets, but I'm not sure if my life is there anymore. Plus I feel that if I move, my heart will be broken (like an 80's classic romantic-comedy movie heart break). I'm happy, but why am I so confused on what to do? For you that have decided to read this may or may not know that my Grandpa just passed away a little under a month ago. He was 92 and lived an amazing life that any granddaughter would be proud of. So with his passing, my Grams will be moving to Dallas to live with my parents which will then cause me to not have a room anymore. I'm totally fine with that, but I feel like it really won't be my home anymore. I'm 23, but I still feel 18 some of the time and it's finally hitting me that I'm growing up. College is over and now it's time to get a job. That's where I'm stuck! And all I keep asking myself is: "What do you want to do Lori Michelle?! You should know by now!" I know that whatever I want to do in life is help people, I feel that is my calling. And I have a degree in Psychology, so at least I have one good firm step in the right direction for wanting to help people. And I also know that whatever I do, I want to do for God.

          I've had a pretty good number of windows open the past few weeks, but I feel like I'm standing in concrete and I can't move. So I'm doing nothing besides praying and reading the Bible to gain some type of insight on what my next move should be. I feel a little bit lighter now bearing all this onto the Internet. For the whole world to read. Until next time dear friends.